Thursday, June 21, 2012


I've had an off day today, I really can't explain it. I woke up this morning not feeling like myself. There wasn't anything "wrong," I felt fine, slept fine, but felt unsettled. I've felt unsettled most of this week. Again, I can't explain it.

Maybe it was the 3 negative pregnancy tests that I got this week. Maybe I had my hopes up just a lot little.

Maybe I'm worried about my mom, she was diagnosed with Lupus yesterday. We are unsure of which of the two forms she has. She went for more bloodwork today.

Maybe I'm beating myself up over not being there for my best friend and cousin today as she is having a major surgery. She lives in Michigan and I in Georgia.

Maybe it's watching a friend's marriage falling apart. They've given it all that they are willing to give and have decided to divorce. I think it's sad. I want to be supportive but on the inside I am screaming "don't give up." Everyone has hard times, marriage wasn't designed to be easy.

I'm giving it all to God. I've found myself praying a lot today, even when I don't realize that I'm doing it. I know that God would never give me anything that I couldn't handle and I am grateful that he trusts me so much. Tomorrow is a new day and maybe, just maybe, I won't be so much of a jumbled mess.

Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you-1 Peter 5:7


Faith said...

Praying and thinking about you. There's a lot going on so there is no wonder that you had an off day. You have the best attitude though. Leaving it all to God. That's all we can do during the days when we feel we have no control regarding the things happening around us.

Also sending prayers above for your mother.

Danielle said...

Thank You Faith, you are always so sweet and give me such encouraging words!

Pegster said...

HUGS, some days are like that. You are so right about Faith, she is super sweet.