I Won't Complain

Ashish had an interview this week! He loves his job as a pharmacist but the job is sucking the life out of him. He has wanted to change companies but this is the first time that he has taken the first step. We are praying that he gets the job. The new job would be a good change for our family dynamic. The hours are 8:30-5:30, Monday-Friday, no holidays, no weekends. We've gotten ourselves a little bit excited about it. If he doesn't get it will we be upset? No, not really. It would be a nice change but we are used to the life that we live. Despite his crazy schedule he still maintains a great home life. He makes time for Jordan, he makes time for me, and he is getting better at making time for himself. That's really all that I could ask for. Instead of praying that he gets the job, I am now praying that GOD just open a new door and shut old doors. I pray that he makes it clear to us as to what to do and when to move. We probably won't hear anything back until later this week so please pray for us.

I've had a heavy heart for the past few days. I'm hugging Jordan a little bit tighter every night. Some good friends of ours miscarried at 12 weeks. I know that it isn't for me to make sense of. I know that it's all in God's timing but I'm still left feeling heavy hearted for these friends. They exhibit so much grace during times like this and it really makes me take a step back and re-evaluate all the things that I hold dear to me. I continue to pray hard for them. I pray that they will find peace during this time.

My heart is also heavy because a little boy named Creed (you can read about him here) who passed away this morning. I don't know this family personally. Creed is the nephew of a friend that I went to high school with. He was an amazing kid that was loved and supported by so many people. I can't begin to imagine what his mom, Stefanie, is going through. Jordan is everything to Ashish and I, I can't imagine my life without him. I would take a lifetime of whining and crying, "mommy-ing" me to death,  and jumping on my couch over not having him here with me everyday.

I'm hugging Jordan a little tighter, giving just a little bit more encouragement, loving a little bit harder today.

I Won't Complain lyrics

by: Rev. Paul Jones
I've had some good days
I've had some hills to climb
I've had some weary days
And lonely nights
But when I look around
And I think things over
All of my good days
They out weigh my bad days
So I won't complain

Sometimes the clouds are low
I can hardly see the road
I ask the question Lord
Lord, why
Lord why
Why, why, why so much pain?
But the Lord knows what's best for me
Although my weary eyes
Oh they can't see
So I'll just say thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
I won't complain

God has been good to me
He's been so good to me
More than this world could ever be
He's been so good
He's been so good
He's been so good
To me

He dried all of my tears away
Turned my midnights into day
So I'll just say thank you Lord
through all of my heartaches
Thank you Lord
Through all of my trials
Thank you Lord
I been misunderstood
But thank you Lord
Even been lied on
But thank you Lord
Body wretched with pain
But thank you Lord
Bills were due
Don't know where the money is coming from
But thank you Lord, thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
I won't complain

God has been good to me
He's been so good to me
More than this world
More than this world
Could ever be (ever be)
He's been so good
He's been so good
To me (He's been just that good)
He dried my tears away
Turned my midnight into day

So I'll just say thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
Through all of my trials
I want to say thank you Lord
I been misunderstood
But thank you Lord
Early in the morning
When I wake up I thank you Lord
(Thank you)
You been so good to me
(Thank you)
You opened doors I could not see
(Thank you)
Made a way out of no way
(Thank you)
When I was sick
The doctor said I wouldn't get well
(Thank you)
He healed my body
Now I can say
I just want to say
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you

Nobody like the Lord
(Thank you)

When I think of the goodness of Jesus
(Thank you)

And what he's done for me
(Thank you)

My soul cries out
(Thank you)

Thank you Jesus
Thank you Jesus
Thank you Jesus
You saved me

Santified me
You baptized me
Filled me with the holy ghost
I want to thank you
Nobody like the Lord
Early in the morning
From the rising of the sun
To the downing of the same

Thank you Lord

Thank you Lord

I won't complain