Friday, June 01, 2012

Truth Be Told

J: Mommy, why don't we have a baby at our house?
Me: What do you mean?
J: Lorelei has a baby, Christopher has a baby, and Ms. "Lissa" has a baby in her belly. I want a baby at our house.

My heart broke just a little bit for my 3 yr old today. He doesn't get it. He sees all of his friends with baby brothers and sisters and he is starting to feel left out.

Truth be told, I don't know if Jordan will ever have a baby at his house. We weren't trying to get pregnant when I became pregnant with Jordan. I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) when I was 22. At the time, I wasn't too worried about it. I was career driven, enjoyed my job, loved hanging out with my friends; the farthest thing from my mind was babies. At the time, I was okay with never having children.

Truth be told, we've been trying to give Jordan a baby at his house for a while now, longer than I am willing to admit to anyone. Not even my closest friends know how long we've been trying. It's hard to see the majority of your friends able to get pregnant so quickly. As a matter of fact, I have a friend, one of my best friends, that has gotten pregnant twice since I've been trying, she is due with her 3rd child in August.

Truth be told, I don't want to be that friend that everyone handles with kitten gloves. I don't want my friends to feel like they can't share their pregnancies with me. I am excited for each and everyone of them. My inability to get pregnant doesn't hinder my excitement for my friends.

Truth be told, babies are a blessing from God, despite when they come and how they come. So we will continue to pray, we know that He has a plan for us, we are just waited for the big reveal! Until then, I'll enjoy this little guy, who isn't so little anymore!


Pegster said...

Oh Danielle, my heart broke a little reading your post. You have the best attitude about this whole unfortunate ordeal. God is good, I will keep you in my prayers. Your son is so adorable by the way. Children are such blessings.

Faith said...

God is good. He is a miracle worker. You will have another baby. Praying for you.

Mrs. Pancakes said...

God's time is everything for sure...what a blessing Jordan is indeed!